Posted by Susan47 on October 11, 2006, at 23:25:00
In reply to Re: He's Gone » susan47, posted by Joan797 on August 9, 2006, at 6:33:27
For a picture of my ex-T, I would die. Yes. No. That makes no sense does it? But the picture of him that I held in my mind gets more and more difficult to bring back, to remember ...
I wish I'd snuck a camera into a session .. I did draw his face once but it was in a hurry during a session and I was talking and it wasn't very good .. and then I got sick of my silly mooning and I tore it up. A photo would be lovely, but painful .. because I can't have him. I never could, the whole thing was too fantastic, the fascination and the longings and the daydreams .. Wow. It was Fun. Mega-major-Fun. I LOVED it. It made me happy.
Does this sound strange to anyone? It doesn't seem strange to me at all.
Because loving someone in that way is totally exciting.
Oh, heavy heavy sigh.
Silly to love someone like that.
Really really silly.
Silly, silly me.
But anyone who's been deeply in love would definitely understand. You do, Joan.
Thanks for understanding, for being the same way.
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