Posted by susan47 on August 14, 2006, at 1:53:30
In reply to Re: He's Gone » susan47, posted by Joan797 on August 9, 2006, at 6:33:27
Yes but that's idolization. Idolizing his image. See? Not the way to live. No. That just is sad, because the love behind the image is the only thing that ever mattered. When it isn't there and you're still looking for it in the image, you're not seeing what really Is there, In Real Life, there right there before you. Somewhere. Maybe you haven't met an actual person. But you don't need to. Because what's before you is You, you're the only one who can fill you up, but looking at his image .. well yes, that would remind one of the love you saw there, once, in his eyes.
Yes. I would do Anything, Anything Almost, Almost .. well okay, that's b*llshit I would not do Anything, only wish that he loves me one day, maybe even in Eternity, you know, like some kind of Infinite Love that we all need to feel part of... that is what I remember about Him.
And it sounds religious. And when I write with caps, like that, Him vs him, talking about my ex-t, who I was madly in love with, inlove .. well .. it really looks and sounds like a religious experience, does it not? Does it not?
Yes.
It does.
It was.
It was a f*cking religious experience,
Freud, was it Freud ? who said to his patient,
insisted, that she was in love with not him,
not himself, Freud, but in fact with the Almighty or some such nonsense, but really, in love with Life itself, with the Infinite, in love with ...
well ...
and he never saw her again,
because she'd insisited for years and years,
that it was Him she loved, Freud or whoever. Jung? Who? Who knows? Do you know? I can't remember but it was damn interesting. Interesting.
Almost as interesting as the story about Emma's nose. Emma. Poor, poor Emma.
Ah. But this one, this story here, not Emma's but this one, this is a story I lived myself so that gives it the ring of authenticity, the very tone of truth for me.
Oh dear.
Oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear. Dear me. Dear One.
How I love you still,
how I love to see you by surprise,
by surprise,
you're so bloody perfect, to me,
always will be you see,
you'll always be lovely to look at,
gorgeous to behold,
you can't be anything else but,
when you're looked at
with the eyes of love.
Yes.
Really.
It is Wonderful.
It's a miracle.
Love is a miracle.
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