Posted by susan47 on May 29, 2006, at 12:03:40
In reply to Today., posted by susan47 on May 28, 2006, at 0:46:26
That's part of it, the luck of the draw.
Being born beautiful. Physically beautiful.
Limbs at the proper angles,
Hands and feet well-formed
Head in proportion .. they say
if you have a Slightly, only slightly larger head than normal that's the big head not the little one, then irrespective of your features, you're considered slightly more attractive than people whose head is average or slightly smaller, and that's weird but not really, because if it can be related to someone having a larger Brain, and more brainpower, well in evolutionary terms that just makes good sense. Did nature trick us? Well, it's commonly known that nature is a trickster. But in the end, you know, there is always a reason for the trick .. always a reason to show more confidence than is felt, always a reason to sit certain ways, perhaps to tap a foot because another is tapping theirs ...
So we look for these people. They're valuable to us. They're the role models we choose .. people who try harder because they unfortunately have so many reasons for doing that .. mostly good though, mostly good. It's time to put away childish things.
I've played like a child.
Now too many who know me, know this.
And my deepest fears and obsessions, you know who you are .. please do not whip me with who I am.
And I promise to be gentle with you as well.
Because it's mine to role as well ...
mine to role as well.
And thank you, thank you thankyou thanks a bunch thanks a lot thank you for being who you are ..
do you know, I just sit here, and it all comes out. It just pours, flows like a river ...
the first draft is usually the only one.
It must be like that.
Life is like that.
Mostly.
Mostly yes, mostly there is only the draft ...
but as we edit our musings, so can we also edit the past in our memories, and the future in our visions of who we are.
Do you think
you had an imaginary effect?
Do you think that you, who read this, if ever anything is read here, and that's okay, it would be better that way ... but diaries look so silly, private but only to be laid open by the wrong hands, in the end. Hands who would hurt you, who would never understand ... past traumas all laid open for scrutiny .. who was the more honest? Does it matter?
We all lie to ourselves.
.. the best you can do is make your lie a good one ...
something Worth Living For... and there is So Much.
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