Posted by Susan47 on March 29, 2006, at 11:39:15
In reply to Re: (((((Susan)))))), posted by special_k on March 29, 2006, at 4:19:01
Have missed you, too. Very much, and it's sad to know, to realize I can't come here often, anymore, because it makes me .. live in the past, I suppose.
I must vent, please allow me to express what's in my heart, full right now, filling up more and more every moment, as I type, as I remember, as I speak ...
Yesterday I was at the library, very briefly, where I've seen the ex-T in the past, and it'll take awhile to not feel trepidation and dread mixed with awesome, wonderful hope .. for love, for kindness, for acceptance .. and I looked and there at the back of the room was a man, and from the back it was just too easy to see him the way I remembered, once, sitting at his desk with his back to me, and he has a wonderfully shaped body, he's a lucky person ... and it's natural, he has so much natural beauty, and I think he knows what a gift it is, and he knows what to do with it. In our lives we all have so much responsibility to the one spirit that joins us all, because we are all, really, soulmates, every one of us is soulmate to every other one .. and I've abused that, not understanding, or knowing the connection and the meaning of that. I love you too, special_k, although in my heart I call you by your real name. xoxoxoxoxox
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