Posted by AdaGrace on September 13, 2005, at 19:18:52
In reply to Re: A Psychotic F'ing Nightmare, posted by AdaGrace on September 12, 2005, at 21:34:31
I guess once you begin to feel good about yourself, these nightmares end. The problem is that when you surround yourself with people who feed off your insecurities and poor self esteem, you make the bed you lie in.
Therefore, you cannot feel good about yourself, because you are constantly reminded of how stupid you are, how selfish you are for thinking once of yourself, or for talking about how you have been hurt about other's actions.
It doesn't matter, because once you have given everything you can give, and there is nothing left, you end the pain I think. Then there is nothingness. And noone can take away your nothingness. There is a comfort in the nothingness.
They will never know the special person you are.
They will never see or feel all that you could have been.
They will never realize that you were someone who loved them beyond their cruel behavior. Beyond their cruel words.
They discarded your picture.
They put you in the drawer.
They pretended like you didn't exist until you didn't.
They succeeded in killing your spirit.
They flourished in their idealization that you were at fault, you were abnormal, you were not as attentive as you should.You were nothing.
Of course you were,
that's what they made you feel.That's what you allowed them to make you feel.
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