Posted by alexandra_k on July 27, 2005, at 5:39:30
In reply to Re: sad sad i feel sad » alexandra_k, posted by cockeyed on July 26, 2005, at 2:56:33
drugs are mine. i just can't get into the alchohol thing... i drink i puke i drink i puke and all the while im going WHY AREN'T I HIGHER????? it just doesn't seem to do it for me. drunk people are odd funny strange scairey when you are sober. they can be violent and ruminative and i feel scaired. but a lot of people feel that way about drugs. the person on p sitting in the corner huddling with the knife they are trying to kill me they are trying to kill me drive by the hospital open the door and roll 'em out couple days later and they're cured of their paranoid schizophrenia all cured in time for the next supply the next cook the next batch and onto another drug - ho! been to the meetings talking about god and the higher power is god and the higher power can be your bedpan that you keep under your bed to vomit into your higher power can be the infected needle that will give you aids or hep and thats supposed to be what keeps you clean. but it doesn't. cause you need to get high before you can confess your sins to a bedpan or a needle. before you can prey to your needle to forgive you your sins. you need to get high its compulsory. councellors tell you are a liar because you won't look them in the face and its the mj the mj supply that keeps you sane in drug treatment. and urine tests the next day could't they have waited for the 2 ounces we were getting brought in? after the detox after the 3 week tag the mj worked a treat. and it still does. better than the benzos better than the footies and the 4 doubles cause you have to drink with benzos its compulsory they should pass a law.
but somehow...
somehow...
i found something else to live for
and now its recreation emergency medication
but i don't know why
i dont know why
half my sources have dried up.
and im ok with that im ok
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