Posted by cockeyed on July 26, 2005, at 2:56:33
In reply to sad sad i feel sad, posted by alexandra_k on July 25, 2005, at 23:45:19
hey, A.K, give me a break. I woke up this morning-1:oopm and your ruminations were crawling thru my mind. Like some sort of snake.
Got to get up, got to get out of bed, got to call the doctor, got to feed my head.
Why all the gottas. nobody's dead. That's course but guilt's just fine when it's playing with your head.
I'm disabled. B.S. I've said, till I try doing something I "should" do. And can't do it.
wind up in the hospital instead.
There's gotta be a place to shut up one's head. Like a time out corner.
Well mine's cheap vodka. And more guilt ahead; and since I've been a kid that's what works...and then comes the dread. "you're an al-coholic" Right. and I'm a prince when I'm sober instead. Because...well...I'll wax uncivil
I feel better loaded than being a complete sh*t-head.
So, I'm playing my games. I like the nite instead of the gd morning when I'm lost in bed.
Sometimes I think I'm guilty of nothing but too much guilt.
But I'm going to grab me a shot of vodka. And say the hell with it.
Lotsa help I am, but there's always so many sides, and I'm sick of the sober....so I'm gonna take a ride. cockeyed.
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