Posted by Susan47 on April 4, 2005, at 10:02:57
In reply to Re: Porsche, posted by Toph on April 4, 2005, at 7:51:16
I don't remember ever saying Get lost, you bug me. I'm the type that would say, get lost, I can't stand you. Which is not even close to true, as far as you're concerned. You're being ultra-sensitive right now, too, because you're depressed plain and simple, you have been in all the months I've seen you on the boards, you've never felt positive about yourself, but I suspect it's not always been true for you.. you do know what it feels like to feel good, don't you?
And you know something, the idea of a man who can schmooze his way into an elderly woman's house because he's trustworthy, is really wonderful, and you certainly seem to be that.
You mustn't feel ignored by anybody. Post and don't apologize for yourself, not until you've actually hurt somebody and they've told you. You're full of apology, Toph, FULL of it. You feel like you've let down the whole effing world, but NO you haven't, the world has let You down, Toph.. you've had enough of that, you need fresh air, a new perspective.
Can't you get your beautiful corporate ladder-climbing wife to take the reigns for awhile so you can go to school and do what you really want to do? Or take a vacation? Or just quit, and downsize your life for awhile? Take sailing lessons, oh yes, do you live close to the water?
I suspect you've had enough of this career; you can still help people, Toph, doing something else, and you can do something which will give YOU greater rewards. YOU DESERVE IT. You're a good person. It's the goodness in you which is making you feel so worthless, don't you see that? If you didn't care you'd be impervious. GIVE YOURSELF WHAT YOU TRULY DESERVE: KINDNESS. Acceptance. Love from those around you, who truly do love you and want to see you happy, Toph... Happy is not a bad word. You don't need to take on the responsibilities of the world in order to be a good person. Do what it takes to make yourself happy, Toph, and you will be astounded at how much good, positive light you suddenly are capable of spreading. You don't need to seek sadness and despair in others in order to help the world. It just feels like you're a sponge, you know, taking in as much bad feeling as a person can possibly handle and still be breathing .. you need to exhale, darling.
(((((Toph)))))
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