Posted by Toph on April 3, 2005, at 12:23:50
In reply to Re: Movin' On » Toph, posted by alexandra_k on April 3, 2005, at 1:25:34
> Hey Toph, I read the thread over on PC. Your comments made a lot of sense to me. I am sorry you got given such a hard time because of it.
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> I don't think that poster should have been able to get away with saying that to you...
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> But... Different rules I suppose.
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> Anyways. I always appreciate your posts.
> And I am glad you are here.Thanks a lot alex. Maybe many babblers have wanted to tell me to get lost but couldn't. Anyway, I thought the joke was clever but oddly condescending to some of his own following. It was nice to get some support from Larry.
I've really messed up my work by getting so far behind in my paper work. My wife is conviced I have ADD. I'm scattered in conversation having difficulty concentrating. I don't think its the Lamictal or Lithium or dementia or aging, I think it's more that I've lost some focus in my life somehow. Social work is draining, the kids are off in college, and I am having a kind of mid-life crisis. I haven't bought a Porche, I would if that would help, I just feel old and keep looking back and lamenting that I haven't been the best father, spouse, employee that I could have been. My wife keeps climbing the corporate ladder and my kids have their whole life in front of them. Worse of all, I keep obsessing about stupid things I've done in my life and can't seem to forgive myself or give myself credit for the good I've done. I apologize for feeling so sorry for myself. I've exhaused my wife and my T with this broken record. Wouldn't it be nice to good to bed looking foreward to something for once?
Somehow I've run out of gas on PB. This may sound rediculous, but I feel like I was interesting to people here until they got to know me. I miss the feeling I had of coming to a new place and being a part of a community. Maybe these these experiences come in waves and I'll enjoy returning again in the future. I'm sure I'll take a peek from time to time. I'll miss many of you guys. Keep up the work at school, alex. It's obvious to us all, that this accomplishment means so much to you.
I'll see you around.Toph
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