Posted by Susan47 on February 15, 2005, at 23:22:37
In reply to Re: Was it Freud? » Susan47, posted by alexandra_k on February 15, 2005, at 21:49:14
Good. I'm so happy you responded to that post, Alexandra, because I didn't think I could possibly be the only one and I was feeling foolish for being honest and wondering if others would think I was wrong but knowing in my heart that I was RIGHT, I know and that is a big problem, it's not something you can just wish to be better and it's done. It's not like that. This is a huge, HUGE Fear and it's horrible to have, and I don't want it to be that way, I have never, okay and this is embarrassing but the fact is simply that I have okay only once, really, got soooo close to the O with anybody. By myself, no problem. With somebody else? It's not even that it's too much bother or anything because damn it I'm Good at sex, I rock, but how much can you really rock if you can't get off? I don't know, I think I'm totally abnormal there's no way and it just never seemed like it would be worth the bother to fix this, because I always had myself, right, but I think quite honestly, Alexandra, that like you, I just never have had the right person. I know that. Actually, I have always had so much anxiety over sex that I never gave myself a chance or a choice to love anybody, any guy, ever, nor really get to know him either, or him me. So many silly men who thought they knew me, and not one of them ever ever did. It's funny, really. I don't think, honestly, and I hope no men read this because they'll get all huffy and upset, but quite honestly, Alexandra, I don't think men have it. They're a bit shallow, really.
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