Posted by Susan47 on January 31, 2005, at 10:36:35
Everything and everyone I love will disappear
Mostly they disappear while I'm loving them :)
I don't love so that I can hurt myself
or be hurt,
I love so that I can open myself up for being loved in return,
and sometimes I suppose I love the wrong people.
Because often I'm not loved back.
That kind of love is destructive.
It hurts me.
It diminishes me, and makes me less.
And when I'm less, I don't know how to feel good,
or happy, or hopeful.
I cry so much. I'm whining,
feeling sorry for myself.
For everything I've never had.
poster:Susan47
thread:450519
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/write/20050118/msgs/450519.html