Posted by B2chica on September 7, 2004, at 10:50:03
In reply to Re: echos of laughter in my head, posted by Jai Narayan on September 4, 2004, at 8:39:46
Thank you so much Jai for the wonderful comments and insight. You know what i love most about this board? it's seeing/hearing others interpretations of your poems/writings. It's incredible!
after i read your comments i re-read what i wrote and Man, it sounds just like shock tx.
it's actually not, but Please i always LOVE to hear others perspective, it makes my writing interesting to me! instead of just an outlet.-actually, it's about a visual that i have in my head that i haven't been able to 'get out' to my T. and it's just been eating at me. So i finally wrote it out. I was hoping that by writing it out that memory would leave me alone...but it hasn't. so my next step IS to tell my T. But there's just NEVER enough time with him.
it happened when i was 14 i think, the three demons are my brothers friends. i literally had to pass through where they were at-i'd like to believe they were high when they did this but i don't think they were. One of the guys grabbed me forced me in the chair pinning me to it, the other handcuffed my hands behind the chair-they werejust loud and laughing the whole time-their noise drowned me out. the cuffs were so tight it pinched my skin so it was painful, then one guy sat on my lap and undid the buttons on my shirt(luckily i had a bra on) but he started to kiss my neck and feel me up...i couldn't move, i tried to wriggle out of it but i couldn't and he wouldn't stop, he started to go inside my bra and i was yelling at him to stop (but i don't understand why it wasn't an angry scream, it was almost an apologetic yell)
anyway, finally one of the guys said "that's enough" he even said it a couple times and the guy didn't stop so he pulled this guy off me and undid the cuff and told me to get out of here.
i ran back up to my room and stayed there the rest of the day/night.i guess that's probably more than anyone wanted to know. but to be honest with you...it feels good to say it outloud.
maybe this will help me to open up to my T.Thanks Jai.
b2c.
> incredible poem.
> Can you tell be about it?
> What, when and where?
>
> The poem was so raw and real.
> It reminds me of shock threapy.
>
> Is this what you are writing about?
>
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