Posted by Meagan on September 14, 2007, at 10:27:18
In reply to Re: Is there hope? Am I alone? » Meagan, posted by Bonnie_CA on September 14, 2007, at 4:28:03
Bonnie, Thank you for your post. You hit the nail on the head about people not understanding that "you can't" not that "you won't".
But who cares? Take your sick days and take care of yourself first! It's no one else's business why you are taking sick days, you need to take care of yourself - that's what the sick days are for. So take them, and don't give in to thoughts of what you think other people MAY be thinking. (I know that's a little hard to do for us!)
It sounds to me that you are in a position that carries some authority and the decisions you make, though good, can be unpopular with people, which is unavoidable. But it's also very good that you "love" your job, that's really good.
Perhaps you are not feeling resilient - maybe more of an antidepressant or mood stabilizer might be useful to prevent relapse and help you through the rough times. Have you considered talking with your pdoc and seeing about upping your dose of antidepressant/mood stabilizer?
You sound very similar to me and I'm glad I'm not alone. Did you find that the reason you ended up leaving jobs before was because you felt you would cry uncontrollably in front of co-workers or in stressful situations? That is what happened to me, and that is why I left jobs before that happened.
I am very impressed with you for your efforts. All we can do is take a rest, get up, dust ourselves off and get back in the game again. As Woody Allen said: half the battle is just showing up.
As for me, I find that although I need a mood stabilizer, I get too down and need antipressants. The only problem is that sometimes they poop out and then I'm in no position to look for a job or interview. MY pdoc has added something to my present antidepressant that seems to be working and I hope to continue to make gains and strive for the goals I want to acheive in life.
Thanks again for your post.
Meagan
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