Posted by stargazer2 on August 27, 2007, at 8:49:46
In reply to Re: Lack of Job references? » stargazer2, posted by Poet on August 18, 2007, at 15:24:17
Poet, I am in such a negative place right now that I don't believe I will ever be able to work again and the most difficult of that belief is that I was a really hard worker. I have little to show after I left since I always left for my own insecure or negative reasons, not really reasons someone without depression would leave for.
I lose the ability to be objective and leave situations when I feel they are intolerable but that has happened so often, I must have left because my depression was so overwhelming that minor irritants become too great for me to withstand; Therefore I have left many jobs without valid reasons, at least that is what I now believe, although at the time, I was unable to tolerate the work situation any longer.
My depression is so overwheming that right now I feel incapable of ever working again, but that alternates with wanting to work but not feeling good enough to put myself out there. I have lost the ability to know when I am stable enough to interview with any confidence in my abilities.
I'm not sure what I can offer anyone since I have such poor self esteem right now...SG
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