Posted by musky on June 27, 2006, at 0:38:38
In reply to Re: Hey Jules , johnny, cashy, jenico..., posted by johnnyj on June 26, 2006, at 8:52:25
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Hi Johnnyj:yes, yes and yes!! to almost all the stuff you describe.. I just cant believe it you know.
My sleep was ok last night but again woke up at 5am instead of the usual 4am.. so maybe just maybe the sleep patterns are returning to somewhat normal.. But I still feel tired and have to have a nap in the afternoon most days after work(im working just 5hrs /day cause of the previous neck issue, etc. for now)..
Anyways chammomile tea calms me .. strange it would make you more anxious.. but then you said that you are on another drug?? was it lithiumm? maybe this cross reacts with herbs somehow?? i dont know... thats too bad..
What is dramamine??? I dont take anything I have just been doing the calcium magnesium(for other purpose, but it also serves as a muscle relaxant), and the chammomile tea.
Other than the B vitamins which i dont know if they are helping with stress yet.. I think its to soon.. then just take this Omega 3joy ..its for mood support(its just fish oils), I thought I would start that as I was tapering and when I quit the rEmeron in case I had problem with depressed feelings.. I only plan to take it for a short time.. not sure but I think it is helping with all of this too. But I still think Acupuncture has had the most powerful effect, although it doesnt last that long.. So I too am concerned about anxiety.. but i do think I have better days then not like you say.
I dont have stomach tension or heavy chest..just the odd skipped heart beat and then I cant breath, ... but mostly its the tension in my head,neck area and shoulders that is sooo bad.. thats what gets me dizzy.. And the last couple of days im really really figity and restless, cant sit still..etc.. also the scrunching of my face, not the forehead as you describe.. .people ask me if i am having trouble seeing.. thats what it looks like to them.. I say no!!! but it looks like im squinting , but im NOT.. its just the TEnsion... its hard to explain.. this wierd feelingDreams have been better, but I know what you mean by sort of reality, dream like not dream like before falling asleep...but its been pretty good lately.. for that.
I just find this tension and anxiety the worse, with intermittent down times.
If you keep going and dont take drastic measures(ie, more meds.. God forbid) you will get through this .. one day at a time.
I think i know what you mean by having this anxiety feeling but cant place it anywhere.. also today I felt out of it.. then connected then not,,, its soo strange!!!
One thing I have noticed is that IM not craving the sweets like before, which is a good feeling. I was absoultely crazy with it before when on the Remeron. Now my appetite I think is returning slowly to normal.. I still dont have that real Good feeling of appetite /hunger yet.. but I do taste what i eat now and enjoy it, whereas before I would just gorge i was so numbed out..
I think all of this stuff will pass one day.. I HOPE!!! From allmy research one month isnt that long really.. dont get too disheartende yet.. even in 3months dont quit.. Me, Im giving it 6months before I decide... I dont want to go backwards and depend or take these meds again.
I keep tring to hang on to the memory of my days when i never even heard the word antidepressant, or anxiety medication, or panic attacks , depression, etc... that is my goal
Its very hard as you say..
Oh ya been VERY irritable the last 2 days as i mentioned before , but also today i could have just hit someone..lol while I was stuck in traffic... Im tired of all of this too.
I just hate this not being able to relax and I am tired of the muscle tension, scrunching face stuff.
I know what you mean by running to the mts.. me too!!! and just hide like an injured animal till it all passes. and like you one day I feel almost a glimpse of hope, and then almost have a real emotion of joy,,, then the next moment its gone .. and like u I havent had feeliings for soo long , been numbed out on the Remeron.. I know its the Remeron as iwasnt like this before.. issues, yes.. numbed out NEVER!!!
Well hang in there.. I just keep crossing the days off my calendar and keep focusing forward..
i keep telling myself that every day I am not on Remeron is a day more that my body is healing..
The body need to readjust its chemistry and it will yo yo for quite some timeOh Man.. I hear ya,,, im there too.. keep going
Musky
Hi Musky,
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> I slept ok on Friday night. I fell asleep on the couch and was sleeping pretty sound. I felt weird all day Saturday and then did not sleep at all on Saturday night. I was so agitated and got so upset. I could not sit still and rest in one position very long. I had drank some chamomille tea before bed and I am wondering if that had a paradoxal reaction to it? I often have the opposite reaction to herbs so I am hoping it was the tea. Therefore, Sunday was terrible. I had all of this tension in my stomach and chest. I ate that afternoon and things went down very fast and I was totally spaced out. I do think a lot of it is the lack of sleep. Relaxing music, praying, relaxtion, nothing has been working the past few nights. Just so agitated, but Saturday was the worst it has been. When trying to sleep I seemed to be in a half dream state trying to fall to sleep but not there yet which was very weird. I saw myself driving and all of the sudden there were school kids in the cross walk and I jolted awake and was totally freaked out. very scary.
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> I sometimes crunch up my forehead and release it because of tension I get. I haven't had to do that with my face. But, there is a lot of tension because of the drug. My forehead is all tight today.
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> Fight with your husband? Well, my wife and I fought Thursday night. I just wanted to run to the mountains and wait all of this out.
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> I had to take some dramamine as the nausea was up and down on Sunday. I managed about 5 hours sleep last night but I am beat today. I am somewhat worried that this anxiety is not going away. But, this is not the heart pounding physical anxiety I have felt. Just some nagging anxiety that resides somehwere I can't figure out. I will give it 2 months before deciding to take some other action. To have sleep/nausea/anxiety problems after 4 weeks is worrying me a lot. I guess I had 3 good nights of sleep last week and then 4 bad ones. Before they were moderately bad and now either good or bad. And the bad, are really bad.
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> Do you have any stomcah tension or ache after eating? Some sharp pains too. My appetite is not the best the past two days and that is troublesome.
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> Some times during the day I feel I am just one step away from feeling great and things will calm down. Other times I feel I am one step away to crashing. Hard to know as my whole experience right now is just "weird". Often times I cannot say exactly what I am feeling just "off" ya know?
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> Getting very tired of this. I have found that my new ability to feel things at times is overwhelming too. I enjoy feeling the breeze on my face, etc., but I have been numb so long it is somewhat scary too. Does this make any sense? This may be a source of anxiety too.
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> Not sure what to do with the sleep as I cannot have total sleepless nights and recover. Lot's of mixed feelings right now.
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> johnnyj
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