Posted by anahata31 on April 14, 2006, at 10:44:36
In reply to Re: mirtazapine/remeron updates?, posted by musky on February 22, 2006, at 19:51:26
Hi there! It's great to find this thread.
I've been on 7.5 mg Remeron for 9 months - I've been an anxious insomniac for pretty much all my life, and never cared much for food, but Remeron changed me. I've never touched antidepressants before, but have tried so many different sleeping pills, leading to a benzo addiction that lasted a few years. My doctor prescribed me low-dose Remeron to help me sleep, and quit using benzodiazepines. Well, it worked. The sleep is good, and my appetite is good (gained 10 pounds in 9 months, but have to be careful of what I eat, which is a change for me).
But I've also noticed a change in my personality -- I wouldn't say I am less anxious, or more tired, it's just a general sense of "who cares", a numbness that makes me just less fun to be around, less talkative, less enthusiastic about interaction with others. So I decided to stop, a few months ago, slowly tapering down to 3 mg, then off... And it was awful, flu-like symptoms, nausea, and complete insomnia. So here I am again, back on 7.5 mg, hoping to gather the courage to stop for good.
I want to be my old enthusiastic self again, and I want to be off Remeron so bad, but the one thing that holds me back is the insomnia...Despite all the side-effects of this drug, I have found a quality of sleep that I never had before (though it isn't as good as during the first few months on it), and it causes me sadness and distress to leave that weird, deep, vivid Remeron sleep behind, especially since I don't want to touch sleeping pills ever again.
So, I don't know...I know what I have to do, yet it kind of scares me, and it's good to read about other people's experience.
Thanks!
Nathalie
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