Posted by sometimesblue on October 9, 2007, at 13:54:16
In reply to Whine away » sometimesblue, posted by ClearSkies on October 9, 2007, at 12:36:33
Believe it or not, it helps to know that someone understands....i don't feel like such a freak. My husband is one of those peoples that believes life is about mind over matter....and i am proof that that's not the case. It makes me sad, but i can't linger on that thought because it brings me down even further. I still haven't realized that substance use isn't good for me, i like coke, i like pills. Although I have realized that alcohol is a no-no...i've done toooooo many stupid things and embarrassed myself way too much to go back to drinking. Maybe everyone does have to hit a rock bottom? I don't know yet. I hope i don't find out.
In my ideal world I'd like to be able to party like a rockstar, live like a legend, be a perfect mom [who doesn't screw up her kids], all the while maintaining a sexy mysterious allure for the hubby. And believe me, i'm working on it. I stopped drinking, i think that's something to be proud of. Now if I could only get the rest of my life in order....
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