Posted by ClearSkies on October 9, 2007, at 12:36:33
In reply to Well, Im done Whining..... » ClearSkies, posted by sometimesblue on October 9, 2007, at 12:20:02
> Ahhh, well....I don't know. I'm ok i guess. Addiction is a tricky thing [fyi: i hate using that word, i almost feel like i'm not talking about myself when i use that word].
>Addiction - yes, that's the hardest part of it, applying the word to oneself. I don't define myself by it, yet it sits there, the gorilla in the room, whenever I describe myself without it. Even worse to me is the word "recovered" as it implies that I'm over this great illness; because the horrid truth is that the recovery is never total. My therapist uses the term "sustained remission" as it applies to my alcoholism, and I really love the implied victory of those words. That I've got this illness (OK, this Addiction), that I'm in remission from the illness, and that, after 2 years, the remission is sustained. So much happiness pinned on terminology - geez. Yet, it helps me.
> I can't seem to fill whatever hole it is I have in me. I'm still looking though....Keep looking. I do a lot of reading. I did a lot of google searches in my early sobriety. I bought a lot of crap self help books. I definitely shy away from the AA approach, due to my history with the organization, but I really do encourage you to give them a try, several tries, as many tries as you want - it works for so many people. My path has been cobbled together with lots of different bits, and I really believe that there is no wrong way to do this.
But I hope you don't mind if I check in with you once in a while and see how you're doing. Kindred spirits and all that. I think it's a tough road to be struggling with substance abuse issues and mental health stuff, and try to juggle the medication/self medication problems.
Take care and hang in there.
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