Posted by stickywicket on May 23, 2006, at 15:11:27
I've done something I swore to everyone I'd never do again. Over the past 4 years I became addicted/dependent twice on Xanax. I took more than prescribed and often with wine to knock me out because my anxiety was so bad. The withdrawal both times was hellish, which makes what I'm doing all the more incredible.
There's alot going on in my life right now causing tremendous stress so my anxiety is often through the roof, especially at night.
My mother-in-law had an rx for Xanax and recently entered an assisted living home. She was taken off the Xanax so DH brought it home. I took many of the pills from the bottle, and he hasn't noticed. When the anxiety at bedtime is unbearable, I take one. This is in addition to 12.5 Seroquel which isn't doing much for calming the anxiety and getting me to sleep fast enough.
I KNOW this is a dangerous path I'm going down. I see my pdoc tomorrow and am thinking about turning over the pills to him and confessing. I could just put them back in the bottle or flush them but giving them to him lets him know I'm struggling more than I can say in words.
What should I do?
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