Posted by AMD on December 1, 2005, at 7:27:29
In reply to Re: Slipped..., posted by Declan on December 1, 2005, at 1:43:45
Declan,
I have never felt this bad. I know I 'cry wolf,' and seem to repeat the same complaints each time, but typically it's mostly guilt, some depression, but not enough to physically or seriously mentally disable me.
Today, however, I am having trouble even moving. I can't focus at all, my mind is wandering, and even typing this is taking an extreme amount of effort. Rather than getting better after a week, it's only getting worse.
Did I do something this time to *snap* my mind, break it into two disparate, unworking pieces. I feel like death right now. Nothing, and I mean nothing, can distract me from this hell. Not only is it depressing to read: I simply can't read, or function. I feel on the verge of a complete mental and physical collapse.
What could have caused this? I'm afraid to death I did something to hurt myself permanently this time. It'd been five weeks: why did this slip make me feel worse than ever?
I am in panic mode now.
amd
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