Posted by ClearSkies on October 31, 2005, at 8:20:05
In reply to Re: Really difficult week. » ClearSkies, posted by verne on October 31, 2005, at 7:46:06
> You are a lot stronger than me. Whatever you are doing is working. I would like to see 70 plus days again.
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> Verne
>Not stronger, Verne. I tried to quit who knows how many times in 12 or more years. I attempted AA countless times, even though it *never* worked for me, as guilt cannot sustain my willpower for very long.
Something fundamental changed when I did the outpatient programme. Something about sitting in a room with the same group of people for a month, 4 days a week, all talking about the same subject, really helped to make that paradigm shift. From hopeless to possible. The desire to be abstinent has always been there.
Taking the medication to suppress cravings has been a cornerstone of my sobriety so far. I take Campral 3 times a day. I don't care if the pills have sugar in them; they are working.Keeping your plan for recovery simple is key, IMO. I think you have a good plan. I would humbly ask that if you feel the urge to drink that maybe you post here? We can be a support for you, though long distance and out of sight.
No thoughts of failure, Verne. If we stumble, we get up and continue. We don't have to start back at the beginning of the road.
ClearSkies
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