Posted by verne on October 9, 2005, at 2:28:57
81 days sober but I would have drank today if I had a way to get it. I'm too far from the store, don't drive, and have an agreement with my one remaining, driving, friend not to take me.
This is basically a relapse and I need to make some changes. I just can't continue on a "dry drunk" and not really work on the problem.
What made me especially vulnerable is that I have a sore throat. When I'm sick I want to medicate with alcohol.
Wanting to change how I felt, I spent the afternoon harvesting morning glory seeds, ground them, and ingested about 200. Supposed to contain a weak relative of LSD.
Anyway, not much happened with the seeds. I think I need to put them through some sort of extraction process to get the full effect. I've gotten a kind of speedy high with the raw seeds before but at a much higher dose.
Tonight I didn't want to take a full dose for fear I would upset my stomach - in addition to the sore throat. Anyway, I'm deliberately staying up so that I sleep in tomorrow, leaving less time to plot a beer run. I'm really on thin ice.
I'll be quiet.
Verne
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