Posted by ClearSkies on September 20, 2005, at 5:45:49
In reply to Re: feeling emotional and sober » ClearSkies, posted by ButterflyHigh on September 20, 2005, at 0:35:54
Thanks for your concern, Butterfly. I'm in an intensive outpatient programme and am a member of Women For Sobriety (weekly face to face meetings). I spoke with my sponsor yesterday from AA and told her that I'd love to be her friend, but for the moment I find meetings to be way too triggering and difficult to filter ("take what you need and leave the rest") to be good for me. After the outpatient programme is complete I may go to meetings again. At least I know I have people to call and talk with.
I am so fortunate that I have not suffered any permanent damage from chronic alcohol dependence. It's the unlearning and retraining of my thought process; not accepting that a trigger reaction is the best one to act upon, and finding out who this sober stranger is that have become my challenges. I feel that during my repeated attempts at sobriety over the last 5 years a lot of groundwork has been laid down, even if I wasn't in a position to accept and act upon what I've been learning. Now, for me, the time is right. Today I can stay away from a drink.
ClearSkies
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