Posted by verne on September 20, 2005, at 0:08:41
In reply to feeling emotional and sober, posted by ClearSkies on September 19, 2005, at 21:42:37
I know what you're talking about. Being conscious, too aware, too much feeling to cope with.
I feel as though I'm out on the edge of a small limb, unsteady, and dizzy. Being conscious is painful.
Even something good happening to me, hurts.
Tonight I've taken refuge and found relief in a strong pot of kratom and calea zachechichi (sp) tea. (dream herb)
I can't find a doc who'll prescribe a benzo - haven't taken any in ten years - so I've sought alternative remedies for anxiety. I liked xanax and didn't drink for almost 2 years (longest stretch in my adult life) while taking that or other benzos. Yet now the docs say they can't prescribe it because I'm an alcoholic. Never mind that xanax won't kill me but alcohol will.
Oh well, I'm stuck in the conservative Bible Belt for two more years, hoping one day to move to the Northwest or Oregon Coast where docs are more liberal and pot laws less severe.
If acid were legal I'd do that too. Used to be my favorite anti-depressant. My face hurt the next day from smiling so much.
Verne
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