Posted by luvdove on September 7, 2005, at 23:50:28
In reply to Re: One week clean... » luvdove, posted by ClearSkies on September 7, 2005, at 7:20:30
Oh honey I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. It's that rock and hard place stuff, where every option seems to be met with some sort of opposition...
I struggle A LOT at times with trying to work out who knows best out of my t, my sponsor and my doctor, because the fact is that they are not all on the same page and/or coming from the same theoretical base, despite the fact that they all know my history. It's so hard to know who's got all the answers when I feel like I have no idea. Yes AA has worked for many, but it's not for everyone and I feel sad to hear that you haven't connected with it.
Some people in recovery are really 'hard-line' about medication and what constitutes using etc, because cross-addiction is very possible. I gave up my drug addiction for an eating disorder, and it's more of the same stuff really. With psych meds I think if you're as honest with your doc as you can be and follow the directions he/she gives you EXACTLY then you may not abuse them. It doesn't have to be as black and white as "you WILL abuse them", thats bullsh*t. Sorry I feel quite strongly about this, but then I also know how easy it could be to convince yourself that you need 'extra pills' because the feelings while not drinking are so painful.
It sounds like your support group is really good for you, and that you can get some needs met there. You will *always* get mixed messages from people from different orientations though, and this is something I've had to learn to live with. In my psych studies I've learnt what an asset it is to be able to hold ideas simultaneously that contradict, because so many DO!! And no-one will be 100% right on every issue, no matter how well they know you. You have to go with your gut, and what *feels* right. Take what you need and leave the rest. You said you're very intuitive so listen to that! I do feel for you though because I know how hard that can be.
Keep talking about this stuff!
Luv
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