Posted by partlycloudy on November 28, 2004, at 7:27:49
I hope everyone survived Turkey day with no injuries. I was ill tempered for most of the time, fueled by staying sober while my visiting in-laws did not. It really upsets me that I became so angry with them, and I know I should have kept quiet.
I'm on my own until Thursday. Being alone, particularly while not working, is a dangerous time for me. It gets really hard to leave the house, and it gets really hard to stay sober.
Yesterday I did get out to the gym and attended an aa meeting. There were a few people who had seen me a week ago in much rougher shape. They made me feel so much better with their encouraging words.
The big hitch for me is the antagonism that's expressed towards psychotherapy and psychotropic medications. Officially I know that aa recognizes these treatments, but practically, the overwhelming opinions expressed so far with my experience is that the meds and therapy make you more ill, and all you need is the program.
I don't blame my depression anxiety and panic on my alcohol abuse - they are coexisting illnesses. Drinking definitely worsens depression, but just stopping drinking does not make the depression go away.
I've been told to listen to it all and take what I need from this program, What this feels like to me is that I'm not free to discuss my problems in their entirety.
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