Posted by NikkiT2 on June 5, 2004, at 12:11:56
In reply to Day 2, posted by NikkiT2 on June 4, 2004, at 10:44:30
OK, so its not going so great.. I ended up smoking 4 yesterday, and I've had 3 today (its nearly 6pm).. But, that is a hell of alot less than the 20 a day i was smoking.
But, I've also turned into bitch from hell. 80% of people are really really really winding me up. People who's foibles I can normally just brush off are maiing my blood pressure rise and steam com eout of my ears. Where normally I can smile sweetly and just let it all wash over me, I just want to bitch and scream at these people. I want them to know how annoying they are (I know a few of thes epeople make other people feel the same way!).. I want to tell them they are pathetic!
Depression has also gone down down down.. feeling very hopeless and useless today. Job hunting is going very badly and its really getting to me. Feeling like I am destined to be a massive failure.
Anyway, back to the smoking. It is very strange.. As I have said, I was smoking 20 a day, and always had cravings for more. 20 was never enough, but I limited myself. Every 20 minutes or so the craving would kick in and I would have to give into it. But, the 20 minute cravings aren't there. Its been 2 hours since I smoked a ciggie, but there is no craving or desire to smoke. OK, so it does hit every now and again, but for it to hit 5 times a day instead of say 40 is a HUGE step, and I think with one more hypnotherapy session (booked in for friday) I think I can really nail this.
more tomorrow!
Nikki x
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