Posted by Caper on May 14, 2004, at 22:34:25
In reply to Bipolars and Cocaine, posted by catmint on May 14, 2004, at 5:21:37
catmint,
I think there is some truth to the theory that Bipolars gravitate toward drugs like cocaine and speed. I remember reading some studies in college (I was a psych major) that called it "self-medicating" when a depressive phase was coming on, an attempt to hold onto the hypomania. To be perfectly honest, I like my hypomanias and that may have been why I developed a fondness for speed and other such drugs.
I do have to agree with Impermanence too though- coke and speed just feel great! I love the feeling! The downside is that the effect is so short and when you've come down from the high you are still you and still have the same problems as before. I try to stay away from those now, not only because of them being illegal and bad for my health, but because I ended up liking the mood-altering affect so much that I turned to alcohol when I couldn't get speed. So now I'm a bipolar alcoholic- not a good thing at all, obviously.
NA meetings might be a good idea for you. You'd get to hear the stories of those of who suffered a lot from our using, before it's too late for you and you become one of us. You also might want to consider telling your doctor- it's possible you have adult ADD and could benefit from a med made for that, or that you need an added antidepressant with your Lamictal.
Hope this helped a little. Best of luck to you.
Caper
> I have Bipolar type II. I have been on many meds in the past. Right now what works for me is Lamictal monotherapy.
> Recently I have been partying with friends a lot. I have done cocaine twice in the past 10 days. I really like it and that worries me. There's always NA meeting I can go to.
> I'm just wondering if any other Bipolars out there like the high from cocaine. I've heard it's the drug of choice for many of us.
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