Posted by Toph on September 14, 2018, at 10:07:38
It feels awkward posting if I rarely visit but what the hell? The last time I had a major manic episode was I don't know seven years ago when my mother died. During the vigil in the hospital I wasn't vigilant with medication and I paid for it. Now my wife is worried because I just returned from North Carolina where my brother had a stage 4 glio blastoma removed. It felt good to just be there with him.
I seem to be rotting away in retirement. Drinking way too much. Having trouble bonding with the new dog. My wife is always complaining about stuff that I should be doing. Those youthful days of energy, ambition and passion seem depleted and irretrievably lost. My sister-in law is in a panic about losing her husband. Doesn't feel like I have the right to feel like I do but I do.
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