Posted by alexandra_k on June 25, 2014, at 21:56:33
In reply to Re: refocus..., posted by alexandra_k on June 24, 2014, at 21:15:54
i could do law, i think. it is... structured. ordered. procedural. rule based ahahaha. formal... i like all of that. it is... comforting.
i know everyone wants to do criminal law (though an awful lot change their minds when they learn they don't get to pick and choose who they defend)... and i know lots of lawyers are *ssh*l*s... but still... it is a very verbal field... and lots of hunting out cases... and claiming they are just the same in certain relevant respects to what you want to happen over here... and it's philosophy, really. i'm good at that. at those connections. at that way of thinking... analogy...
and the lawyers i talked to were... reasonable people. and so were the police, actually. and the judge was nice. he even asked if i had managed to get to see a doctor and showed some kind of concern that i wasn't allowed to go within 20 meters of community mental health...
the lawyer kept saying 'minor minor minor' and i did get the impression that they were... puzzled... that someone had decided to phone the police and waste everyones time on this... the cop at the station was like... said something about how she is bound to get hit all the time in her job and it was just that today was the day she choose to try and do something about that. he seemed a bit sheepish about that. like... how she sort of waited for the most harmless person to persecute, uh prosecute, uh, defend herself against. whatever.
i am surprised she lied. or that the cop guy did to make it sound... less crappy. i did not kick her or try. she did not say that i could see the doc in a couple weeks. she did not know why i wanted to see the doc. she did not even ask. she did not assess me (she told them i did not need to see a doctor). she was... full of f*ck*ng sh*t, she was. she only came out to throw her weight around... and you should have seen the f*ck*ng grin on her face when i hit her.
anyway... whatever...
at least... i'm not getting... uh... camus... had me worried. worried about the appropriate remorse thing. hitting people is not okay. of course. i understand that. but as for remorse... nobody seems to actually expect me to feel it. under the circumstances. next hearing.. i might have to meet with a police officer to discuss the terms of the diversion... whether i have to write her a letter or whatever. apparently i get to tell them my side of things... and they help figure out what is to happen. apparently she needs to decide whether she's happy with my getting diversion or not... but i'm sure they will want to teach her a lesson too about wasting police time...
and there it is.
so... feeling better about law. which is good. because, uh, given labs... it might come to that.
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