Posted by alexandra_k on August 2, 2013, at 0:03:32
In reply to Re: this community, posted by alexandra_k on July 4, 2013, at 6:50:00
i woke up yesterday to find i didn't get a work and income payment so i was unable to pay my rent.
i went in to see work and income...
studylink doesn't consider me a student anymore because i'm not enrolled with a tertiary provider in nz.
work and income nz doesn't consider me looking for work because i'm working on my thesis.
i got all agitated and ranty on them.
there was a poster on the wall about how you should know where your kids are before you back up your car.
you need to tell people not to run over their own children
oh
my
god.security had to mechanically open the door to let me out. why would they lock me in - i don't understand.
agitation...
agitator...
people don't like it. i see now the danger in labeling agitators as mentally ill. it seems like a lisence to ignore what they are saying. don't pay attention to her, don't worry about what she is saying, she is mentally ill. don't listen to her saying that reduced class sizes will help with literacy development. she's mentally ill.
i woke up today and went in to the local community mental health clinic. they saw me after only around a 30 minute wait. they listened empathetically. they got a psychiatrist to see me. the psychiatrist filled out a form which supports my applying for a sickness benefit (so i don't need to look for work). and gave me a 7 day prescription for valium (which will last me about a year).
holy f*ck.
what went right?
she also said that i need to live my myself if at all possible. that i need a low simuli environment. MDD. episodic. DID.
i feel raw. i don't know what to say.
i feel like someone has gently scraped me all over. including my insides. not that that makes any sense at all.
they had a massage chair in the waiting room. the first time i used it it was f*ck*ng AWESOME!!! the second time... not so much. mechanically creepy. i would love to try the squeeze machine.
that is all.
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