Posted by Tompan on March 31, 2011, at 20:04:10
In reply to Re: Aloneness » Tompan, posted by sigismund on March 31, 2011, at 2:08:21
> Perhaps you don't know what would please you?
Actually, I've always felt that I'm fairly easily pleased...so this doesn't sound quite right.
> If your feelings are not conventional, maybe the conventional options aren't great.Yes, I guess that could apply--I definitely tend toward the unconventional but not so much that others complain about it.
> Aloneness isn't that bad, I have come to feel as I have got older.
I hear you, but never having anyone call to hear if you're still alive can be crushing at times.
> But wouldn't it be really nice to have a satisfying sense of connection?
Yepp, it would. Sometimes I feel that it's all situational for me: wrong time, wrong place. I have been thrust into situations where I suddenly acquired friendship, but it all seems to have disappeared. I have nice, sympathetic, interesting co-workers for example but they all have their own intricate lives. I have connected with some of them in the past but the whole thing often comes off with me feeling like the veritable "fifth wheel." As I don't share their social situations or interest in fundamentalist religions (as one example) I often feel quite apathetic regarding pursuing further activity there.
> That was a very short wallow, by my standards.
Ha. I actually hate people who wallow, or I should say have little patience for them. I really have little patience for my own lacks too.
Let's move from wallowing to blatant egotism: I really am very talented, intelligent, sympathetic and just don't seem to have anyone else that seems to care. That's a bummer!
Okay, I'm traveling to NYC tomorrow from the west coast and then onward to Europe for a week or so. Will plan to get some good reading and writing in.
Thanks for reading this.
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