Posted by Jay_Bravest_Face on December 4, 2008, at 21:45:30
In reply to I MAY have lost my job. :((((( **Trigger** S I, posted by Jay_Bravest_Face on December 2, 2008, at 1:00:10
I am soooo sorry, as I should have replied yesterday. My general anxiety has been through the roof, and I've even been afraid to open my regular mail. But, saw the doc today, and trying some different things.
Okay...about my job...I blew it way out of proportion. My boss said very nice things about me, and no I would not be losing my job. (He kind of snickered about me telling this 'other boss' to go f*** himself...lol.) I am not normally like that, but my anxiety has just been spinning out of control, especially that day this all happened.
I feel bad for not getting back to you guys yesterday...because you are all so supportive and kind. The anxious pain I felt was very real, though. I was crying all the way home that day, and just had to lose my mind by taking a 15 mg dose of Zyprexa. (Max is 20 mg, I think.) No, it wasn't to o.d., just to become all hazy and lose some of that anxiety. I paid for it, though, as my blood sugar went through the roof! Yikes. Not a nice feeling.
Anyways, please forgive me, and I thank all of you...you guys are really only one of my main support systems. Thank you thank you thank you......and I hope to be there for you, too...I try hard, but sometimes not enough.
Peace,
Jay
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