Posted by Jay_Bravest_Face on December 2, 2008, at 1:00:10
Ohhh...the world has tumbled, cracked before me. I am joining a number of you in this horrid problem. I think I have may lost my job with a place I've been for, for about 6 years.
I've been bawling my eyes to tears since I was "sent home" at about 12:30 a.m. What happened....well, I was left an abrupt note that tonight I would be working in a whole new "area" (different group home) I have not done anything like that in my 6 years. Anyhow, I had never, ever worked this new "area", know *nothing* about it, and the client there is on "probation" because he set one of his other fellow clients on fire. (ya...) I felt uncomfortable going there, with no training and no info on the "area". So, at nighttime, there is one other "boss" above me, who is the "night supervisor". He phones me at my normal place of work, and demands that I go work this other area. I told him "no", and the "boss" was very demeaning and humiliating. I stood my ground...no..no..no. He just acted like an *ssh*l*. Finally, I told him he was still sh*tt*ng in diapers when I started in this field, and just got so fed-up, I told him to go f*ck himself. He then said "Well I am going to send you home." Like as if in Grade 1 or something like that??!! So I just hung up, and left and am now home. I didn't stay because I know he would have called the cops on me to 'remove' me.
So, tomorrow (or today, really) my 6 years of a near *perfect* work record, and have been told that I am the only reliable one out of many by my fellow staff, will hopefully speak for itself.
I phoned my 'normal' boss there and left a message to call him in the morning. I told him I have severe psychiatric problems, and this *better* be handled properly, or else I am going to claim discrimination in the workplace. The stress and pain alone tonight have only been calmed by medications. Driving my way home in tears, i actually for the first time in a very long time had nasty thoughts of just ending it. I was driving, and the telephone poles where attracting me.I have to go for an MRI tomorrow, to determine if *something* is causing my FSH levels to bottom out. Yes, I am a bit scared, because signals in the brain don't just stop.
I don't know how I am going to get through tonight. More pills, I guess. But, no, I wouldn't try to harm myself or attempt suicide, because I have actually healed in that area at they are not issues anymore.
Thanks kindly for reading...
Jay
poster:Jay_Bravest_Face
thread:866227
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20081126/msgs/866227.html