Posted by Kath on May 3, 2008, at 14:50:04
In reply to Re: Expecting the worst instead of enjoying positi, posted by TexasChic on May 2, 2008, at 23:25:09
Thanks TC. you're such a great support person to me.
The thing is, I'd like to do this:
face what MIGHT happen - or face that 'yup; problems might come up again' & then STOP thinking about it; worrying about it; having my stomach feel tight. I'd like to face it & be aware & then get on with my life in a positive, happy way!!
Sometimes I'm able to do that. Often, my peace of mind hinges SO much on how my son is doing, or how he might do.
I wish there was a good Nar-Anon meeting (for the families of addicts) near enough to be reasonable. I guess they're as good as the members are 'healthy' or at least 'getting healthy'. In the one I did try out, which was about 45 minute drive Sunday nights, many people who attended seemed to give a LOT of detail as to what "their addict" was doing, rather than on maybe how they, themselves, were feeling etc.
I wish there was a CoDependents Anonymous meeting nearby. I really benefitted from it when I went there.
Sigh.
I suspect I might feel better once my sale is over. Wed is set-up day. My husband just moved my 'Inventory' database to the computer that I use. It was on an old computer that was REALLY slow & that I haven't been using for a long time. Now I'll be able to enter my new items onto the inventory/put prices on their stickers, etc.
It's a gray rainy day; my husband is sanding our back stairs where he took up the old tile - the glue that remained there is smelly when it's being sanded; I'm feeling concerned that my sinuses will start hurting because of it - I'm feeling sort of dizzy & spacey; I'm feeling depressed & mournful & weepy.
I'm feeling like I don't like having to continue to 'do' this thing called 'life'.
Jeez. I feel whiney & complainy & trapped.
:-( Kath
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