Posted by Fivefires on March 27, 2007, at 13:02:22
Ya' know I spent $75 for an ambulance and my son-in-law took time off work in late Feb or early March because I was feeling soooo much anxiety and grief and called 911 to say I was having ideation. All for not. There is no preventative treatment facility for ideation.
I have P appt (first time in 40days) this afternoon and suppose this issue will surface.
I'm sooo freakin' lonely. I usually cry myself to sleep.
No ... I can't really change anything right now. I'm treading 'quicksand' and cab keep my head above water ... but I need a little support today and I think through a few more days, weeks, months.
I know about 'TRYING'; trust me I do it and I've done it and I'm not being lazy.
I'm truly sad. My fam' of origin recently 'outed' me as I guess I have no value to them. One of my children has lost her respect for me because I cannot watch two babies at once.
I'm a dreamer and a doer and a goer .... but not now. For now I just need to keep treading.
So please, I need to hear from some of my friends here. Just a lil' encouragement pls.
L, 5f
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