Posted by wishingstar on December 10, 2006, at 9:27:39
AHHHHHHHH
I am so nervous I could pee myself.
I dont know if any of you know (I may have mentioned it in passing) but I do ballet. Not professionally or anything.. just a few hours a week.
Today I'm performing in the Nutcracker. Its the 3rd show, but the only one I'm really scared about. I'm doing a demi-SOLO. Ahhhhh. demi meaning its not totally alone.. there is always 1 or 2 people on the stage at the same time as me. But holy cow. How did this happen? I'm afraid I'll mess it up, go to fast and get off the music (and then not be with my partner), hit the finishing pose too early... ahhhh...
I know theres nothing anyone can say. It just helps me to share my misery with others lol. I really, really wish someone would be there to be proud of me today (even if I do mess up all the things I listed above). This is the fisrt time I've ever felt "wait, my mother should care about this". I guess that means therapy is working. haha.
One more time... AHHHHHHHH
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