Posted by tootercat on August 13, 2006, at 15:45:28
In reply to I've been thinking a lot about my life lately..., posted by Michael83 on August 13, 2006, at 3:22:37
Wow! I am scared many days in my life! The difference for me now is that I walk through the fear more than I have ever been able to before. There is always this underlying feeling that if I allow myself to be feel happy and "secure" the rug will be swept from under me. I struggle with fear of loss.
I appreciate that you have big plans and dreams. Even if they don't come to pass as you envision them at least you've had them! I never dared to dream or plan. I just allowed myself to drift and be what was easiest and got me the quick fix. If you "fail" at least you've tried. Easy to say. Hard to do. In the long run it is true.
When you are ready you will do what is right (or wrong) as we learn from every experience we have in life. And if we don't learn the first time we keep repeating until we do! I'm 49. I used to regret that I didn't BECOME somebody important that would change the world. I wanted to BE somebody. A multitude of experiences (aka pain) in my life have brought me to a place where I finally feel relatively comfortable in my own skin now. I am special to many people and creatures and all I have to is be alive. I don't have to perform or be perfect. I still don't have big dreams but I now have some goals for myself.
I wish for you an interesting and ultimately fulfilling journey in life. Be kind to yourself along the way!
Tooter
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