Posted by capricorn on July 12, 2006, at 19:38:46
In reply to I think I really do have a BPD, posted by Deneb on July 11, 2006, at 19:29:53
> I think I have a personality disorder because I make others upset. That's the hallmark of a personality disorder, isn't it?...that our behaviour is a problem for those around us...
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> Sigh. I upset and anger people. I'm having a hard time at that other site again. Some people have been less than civil towards me.
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> I don't know why I annoy others so much. I don't know how to be a normal person. :-(
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> I think some people think I'm a troll. :-(
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> I don't even see how my behaviour is out of line. I think I was civil.
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> :-( I need hugs.
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> Deneb*
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Deneb,
I f*** up on most sites i go on.First there is the
vehement outward denial.Then there is the nagging inner doubt 'Are they right?' playing loop the loop in my brain. Then the guilt and realisation of how sh*tty and worthless i really am.Sometimes i'll even troll to gain attention or
to feel more alive.Sometimes it all becomes too emotionally intense
and it spills out with a recklessly self destructive dysphoria.Basically i'm a sick bastard.
I don't think you are a bad person. Just hurting and muddled and in great pain.
(((((Deneb)))))
poster:capricorn
thread:666163
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