Posted by Michael83 on June 22, 2006, at 0:30:54
In reply to Re: Please rephrase » Michael83, posted by gardenergirl on June 21, 2006, at 23:20:35
*sigh*
>>>>In this case, one way to do that might be to back off from talking about "most people". Perhaps you could instead talk about what you value without holding it up in comparison to "most people".
I understand.
You say the intention of your post was not to get me to explain my post, but to rephrase it. I explained it despite because I believe you misunderstood it. I am sorry for the confusion, perhaps it was my fault.
I merely meant to say that I dislike shallow and rude people and I bent over backways in the last few posts to say nice things and give leeway people I dislike.
The whole intention of the first post I made was to tell everyone why I am happy being me, even with the problems I have. I hoped with that others with issues could feel happy being a bit unique (as I do).
As far as what I value; I value intellect, individualism, and intellectual/emotional/personal courage (courage to self analyze, independently think, and opinionate without bias or attachments, ie conquering self.) Although that doesn't say much, that's the best I can rephrase it. Not sure what else I can do, I tried my best, I'm sorry.
I spend my nights worrying that the Creator of the Universe is literally out to get me and torture me for all eternity. When you understand that, maybe you'll realize why I view so many things as "trivial," and look down on so many things and people (so so far down).
>>>One of the guidleines here is that we must be sensitive to others' opinions.
In nearly every post I've made I said things I didn't want to, just to leave "humble gray areas" (imply I could be wrong, or if they're happy being shallow, it's not my place to criticize them.) I don't see how much more sensitive I can be.
I sorry I even posted the original post.
I just wanted to say something nice about people who are different because people who are different can spend their entire lives wishing they were normal like "everyone else." I know this first hand.
I write almost all my posts at night, right before I go to bed, and most all the time I've very tired when I write them. Perhaps I worded my posts wrong.
>>>>>I should also let you know that posters can be blocked for posts which do not meet the civility guidelines.
If you're trying to ask me politely to leave, I understand, and will oblige.
I just was trying to voice a few major issues (fear of death, contempt for the world) that have given me countless emotional scars and which I will undoubtedly spend the rest of my life obsessing over.
My eyes watered when I wrote this post, so I hope everyone knows that unlike most people (here I go again, forgive me one last time) who when feeling unwelcome on a message board would just leave with a "well forget you then, I'll just leave, I don't need you internet jerks!" and run off and never think of it again , I like the people here and I'll probably think of you and I really hope everyone is one day able overcome their issues and I wish them the best.
I don't know if this is the last post I'll ever make on this Dr Bob's site, but thank you everyone for your help with my earlier posts (in May and early June). Goodbye.
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