Posted by Deneb on June 1, 2006, at 23:58:36
I just realized that I'm terrified at the prospect of finding and starting a new job.
As a result of this, I'm not trying very hard to find a job. :-(
My parents enable me too much by not requiring much from me. I keep telling myself that I will pay my parents back, but I should be doing that already.
I'm want a simple job that is not too difficult. I'm afraid of screwing up. I went to the Tim Horton's across the street from where I live to get an application. Just doing that intimidated me. I don't even know if I'm capable of working in fast food (even though I have done it in the past). I swore I would never work in fast food again, but I'm getting desperate here. I need a job. I can't do nothing all summer.
I don't think I can work in retail because I'm not a very friendly and outgoing person.
I don't want to work as an interviewer for a market research firm again because I don't like bothering people. That job was worst than fast food I think, it was intensely boring.
I don't think I can work as a server because I'm afraid I will spill drinks and drop plates.
I can't work in an office, I don't have experience.
I don't think I can work at Starbucks, what if I forget how to make the drinks?
I'm just afraid of starting new things. I don't have a lot of confidence in myself. I don't think I will be able to learn anything. I don't think I can do anything. I don't think I'm competent.
Deneb*
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