Posted by deirdrehbrt on February 11, 2006, at 20:33:40
I moved in here about a year and a half ago. The woman who owns the house told me it was a safe place. It was just me and her.
Lately, she's been drinking alot. Her boyfriend moved in. She also let an older man move in. Her boyfriend hasn't been able to hold a job. Both of them drink. They just came in tonight fighting, and she's telling him that he has to move out tonight.
I know they're drunk. That's what they do. He came in the house, goes to the bathroom, doesn't bother to shut the door, and she comes in yelling at him.
So I'm in my room with the Olympics on, the sound turned up, hiding. Don't know why. I can't handle the arguing and the fighting. I'm scared.
I've given myself until June to find a place on my own, but I'm scared to do that too. It helps me to have someone around who can recognize when I'm getting out of control (manic or depressed). Then again, I can't really count on people who spend so much time drunk.
I can't spend my time isolated im my room though either. I can't say anything to them. She just came into my room and grabbed (literally grabbed it out of my hand) my phone... hers got shut off because she didn't pay the bill. She's barely standing up.
Maybe I didn't have as much of a problem here before because I was drinking. I don't know, this isn't really a healthy place for me, but I'm so scared to hurt her by leaving, but I'm scared to be here too.
I keep thinking that she'll stop drinking, and things will get better. There's banging and doors slamming and I want to cry. I need to concentrate on school though. I have two papers due on Monday. It's so hard to concentrate on anything though.
Not really looking for answers, just needed to get something out.
Blessings,
--Dee
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