Posted by corafree on November 15, 2005, at 16:13:38
I told Phillipa I feel like there is something bigger than me going on.
I am real calm about doing nothing .. I don't care if I hang a picture on any of these walls .. I don't care if I eat cheese and I get sick ..
I feel like I have no control anymore. I always came back up, ya' know.
I don't even care to try.
The odd thing is I'm so calm about it.
I am neither depressed or happy.
I never have company so I haven't been taking care of myself .. I'm tired of wasting time for nothing.
I even feel selfish, .. like I don't care about anyone else, and that's really unusual. I've always been such a people pleaser.
I can't explain it.
Is it possible that this new condo I am living in has some kind of negative vibes I'm picking up on??
Or, do I know that the end is pending, so why worry about anything and why do anything?
Oh well .. you all prob' think I'm just being dramatic. I'm sorry, of course you don't. I know a lot of you here are very caring. Thing is, I don't know what to tell you .. because I don't know what it is.
Has anyone ever moved to a place and felt like this before??? I think I've been here a couple weeks or more. I've lost all sense of time.
It feels like 'something's(?) just over.
bestwishes,cf
poster:corafree
thread:579024
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