Posted by jay on October 26, 2005, at 8:08:43
OK...Pity-Party time....This seems to be the story of my life. I am so damn hurt, bent, broken by this..."not good enough for this...or that....didn't do this right...or that right..". This is a MAJOR part of my depression, and I think even my suicidality at times.
See, I was born with a developmental handicap, and was 'slow' in school and such, so I had to work three times as hard as everyone else just to get 'average' marks. I was overweight, and 'girls' just have never been interested in me. Whenever I strike up a friendship with a gal, and on the odd chance ask her out to a movie, it's like I had commited the worst, hideous act in the world!!! Then I started losing my hair when I was young, and got taunted and picked on about that. I like to write music that everyone else hates but me. I'm a left handed kid forced to live in a right handed world. Well, I guess the only way to think is that every single one of those people are going to get old, sick, full of stench, and die, and rot in the earth...so who the hell better are them now? Death is the great *equalizer*. F*ck 'em!
Jay (ending on a happy note..lol..)
poster:jay
thread:572022
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