Posted by lynn971 on October 18, 2005, at 6:39:03
In reply to Re: October Is, ***my trigger***, posted by ClearSkies on October 17, 2005, at 22:41:39
I have a Non October experience too. Although it didnt happen in October... This poem tells the rest of the story.
It Should Have Been October
It should have been October
When my wheelchair rolled down the
hall into the roomHooked me up to an IV bag, and EKG monitor
a blood pressure gauge.
Poked and probed and prepped
but at six months early there are no
videos of a baby screaming into life in
full color
just a black and white sonogram snapshot of a baby still cradled in its tomb with his thumb in his mouth.
no soft flesh to pass through me into life just a sterile metal rod to scrape the death from my womb
no certificat of birth
just a bottle of pills for the cramps
I guess that's what happens whe it's only april andIT SHOULD HAVE BEEN OCTOBER.
I found this poem in a book after my third miss.
(had four) this poem is exactly what happened.
I dont know why I shared this story. I guess we all have our share of trials.Hold your head up high.
I know that I tend to fight depression as the weather gets cooler and the leaves begin to fall.We have to go on.
Just want to say I care about you, and I am sorry that October was horrible for you.
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