Posted by Deneb on October 5, 2005, at 15:01:50
Hi people
Anyways, I had my second appoint with p-doc no.2 today and now I realize that he doesn't know what the heck he is doing.
I told him about how I think that sometimes I'm not really sure if I'm making up stuff or really believe that I think crazy things and that I probably don't need an anti-psychotic. He then keeps asking me whether or not I think the Risperdal helped and I honestly have no clue. :-(
The only thing I noticed was that today in the waiting room I wasn't going insane with anxiety like I usually do. I get super anxious even with p-doc no.1 and I've seen her many many times. What the hay, I thought, I may as well take the Risperdal for another 2 weeks, it doesn't seem to be harming me in any way.
Anyways, I've changed my mind about p-doc no.2 being all about meds. He's not really into anything...he doesn't talk much. He doesn't give me any feedback or teach me things. He just listens...which led to some pretty awkward moments of absolute silence... He's into exercise...he said I should go jogging when I feel suicidal.
P-doc no.1 seemed like she knew what she was doing. P-doc no.2 keeps asking me what I need. I don't know what I need. I don't even know what the heck is wrong with me.
It seems like p-doc no.2 doesn't know what to do with me. There were so many moments of absolute silence...no one knows what to do with me. :-(
Argh...what the heck is wrong with me?
Deneb
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