Posted by rainbowbrite on June 23, 2005, at 10:30:26
In reply to Re: ahhhhhhhhh! » rainbowbrite, posted by partlycloudy on June 23, 2005, at 5:34:29
> Do you really think so? Sometimes I feel like my emotions are kicked up way too high, distorted and out of proportion. Other times they are not apparent at all.
> I try to go with the flow, tell myself that it's natural - for me.
Oh I dont know...just had a bad day. I always get my emotions out but sometimes I lose control with anger and I hate it....and then just in general I dont feel like people get me. No big deal, its just lonely at times I suppose.
I say things that people often take completely the opposite of what I mean....grr I frustrate myself at times> I'm not effective at expressing it. It usually ends badly for me. I either keep it in and let it fester until it comes out like a bolus of poison, misunderstood... or else I cry and cry instead of putting the anger into words.
I think I always get out whats bugging me (if I want to get it out) or whatever but I think when my stress level builds to a certain point, I turn into a time bomb. Sometimes I dont know what Im feeling or why Im upset but..
> I'm a grownup. You'd think I'd have it figured out by now. But my growth has been stunted for a very long time, and learning how to express myself effectively and in a healthy way is difficult for me. I keep trying. I keep trying.
No I dont agree that a 'grownup' should have it all figured out....how can people figure sh*t out when everyone else around them is crazy!!?? you know....I think there are so many in the closet mentally screwed up people that they just take others down with them inadvertantly. know one seems to understand what others are trying to say or think and so the reactions people get are sometimes way out there..thus leading to misunderstandings...
And the most important is that you try...and keep trying. :-)thanks
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