Posted by just plain jane on April 5, 2005, at 22:05:42
In reply to Re: Ahh, cr*pAll, posted by Phil on April 4, 2005, at 20:11:47
> justyourlaugh
> Susan47
> used2b
> just plain jane
> PM80
> AuntieMel
> Damos
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> A big thank you to my pals.
> I didn't know that spring was the worst time for suicide / mental illness. A friend told me so I had to look it up. Just when you think you know it all...
> Anyway, for those of us experiencing spring, I guess we just need to let it pass. Very s l o w l y. : (
> My allergies aren't helping matters and it's a banner year in Austin. I think the allergies really drive the depression, especially the sleeping part.
> Anyway, I just wanted to thank everyone for responding. I've muddled through this long. One step up and two steps back.
>
> PhilSpeaking of considering suicide...
It's been plaguing me here of late, too.
trees look real inviting on the highway, but not certain enough. We have a huge spring nearby (a state park around it) which is 45 feet deep. I was out on the raft which crosses it by myself the other day and just couldn't believe how easy it would be to simply dive over the side into the crystal clear water and swim down to the bottom. I'd never make it back to the top alive.
Then again, the water's cold and will to live can interfere with desire to stop living.
I also had to call home and tell my son to relocate all the guns before he left for a few days. If I don't know where they are, I won't go looking, which doesn't mean I would be prevented. I can always go buy another gun. Or hang myself, gas myself in the car or house, poison myself, slice into any of my main arteries, overdose, and on and on. But I just haven't reached the point where I feel I have tied up the loose ends yet, I guess.Damn those loose ends!
jpsj
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