Posted by PM80 on March 21, 2005, at 16:14:02
Hi all. I'm new to this, so I'm not sure if I'm posting this in the right place, but this seems to be a catch-all of sorts. So anyway, here goes. I live alone and it seems that there is almost always too much empty space. Sometimes, I want to scream and shout, but no one would hear anyway. I often feel lonely and really hopeless. I don't even bother to go out very often (ie to the bookstore or the mall) except on weekends because it seems like a lot of effort and I realize it would only be to cover up the emptiness. I moved to this city less than a year ago for a job and did not know anyone when I moved here. Sometimes, I am kinda numb. Sometimes things seem surreal and I drink to feel (often this makes me more depressed and puts me in a dark place). Though I often prefer this painful feeling to the nothingness around. I have been diagnosed as cyclothymic, am in therapy, and am on some meds (mood stabilizers). I was wondering if anyone can relate and what other people do to help themselves.
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