Posted by saw on January 14, 2005, at 1:30:26
Okay, so I have major depressive disorder and GAD with panic attacks and I am being treated for it, and so far the medication seems to be agreeing with me and I am feeling so much better than I did at the end of last year. Why do I feel guilty for feeling better? It's as though there is some predisposed notion that having this illness means I have to be down and depressed all the time. And that if I get better or feel better no-one will take me seriously. I don't know if I am making any sense. I don't want to be depressed. I mean, overdosing last year was truly an awful experience and I don't want to do that again. It just seems so strange that I can feel better just a month after wanting to end it all. I realise the medication is helping, but is it just that? Or is some of it me?
I do feel so much stronger, and more stable, so it feels incongruous that I should feel strange for feeling that.
Sabrina
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thread:442001
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